Dear reader before I start I would like to note some things about myself, so here it goes.

First I would like to note that although I speak several languages I never actually even received a high school diploma since the school I went to which you’ll hear more about later did not provide it, neither did we really study English as a language or use it for day-to-day speaking and therefore my English is not very professional definitely not as a writer but I shall do my best to bring my story out as clear as I can.

Second the reason for me writing this is that I feel empty and stuck in life and I can’t seem to figure out how to get out of it and move on in life with actually doing stuff to build a future for myself, so I decided to write my whole life story and perhaps I will figure something out through it or maybe someone else will for me or for themselves.

Third the reason for the name being big pathetic child is me knowing that not moving on in life but instead wallowing over the past and blaming everyone and everything but myself is basically me behaving like a big pathetic child, but even that knowledge doesn’t help me to move on.

Also I would like to add that since I’m doing this for a purpose and it’s not easy for a “stuck” person to do something purposeful, -it took a nice few month’s from setting up this Blog till i started actually writing- but I will try my best to add at least something almost every single day.